In your 20s no one tells you how truly challenging it will be and to expect so much change and adaption during this time of your life.
In your 20s no one tells you how anonymous you should expect to feel. The anonymity creeps its way into this new chapter of your life, screaming at you that you don’t belong here. Nothing feels familiar anymore, not your friendships, not your hobbies, not even yourself. You find yourself comparing your adulthood to who you once were and how seamless things use to feel whereas everything now has to be precisely planned and scheduled. You feel lost; left behind.
But you were told that your 20s were going to be so excitingly transformative, fresh, and reviving. In fact, you wished away your teenage years because all you wanted was to ‘be an adult.’ I feel as if I’m the ‘x marks the spot’ smack in the middle on the spectrum of feeling completely lost and completely found. I’m trying to embrace it, I’m trying to adapt, but I can’t ignore the fact that life just seems so different and not always in the best way.
I’m trying to be open: to receive freshness, new friendships, new moments, and letting go of what once was and no longer is.
I guess what I’m really trying to say is that so far into my 20s it has felt so disheartening, disappointing, and so unavoidably lack luster.
I hope I find my way into the life I so desperately want to live.
Amy Rose
