He feels so familiar to me. His eyes invite me in & make me feel so welcome, so noticed. He feels so warm like the sunset on my skin in the middle of summer; never wanting it’s warmth to disappear into the horizon. He’s always been such a great friend & confidant but this time he feels so different.
He’s always been so genuine, his authenticity to himself is so rare and so admiring to see. He’s always ready for any adventure & loves to see the world in all the little and big moments. He’s a gentle soul but he’s so much more than that — he’s funny and goofy in every possible way! He loves people so deeply and that’s what I love about him.
It was July 2019, I had been dating someone longterm for a few years & he had just gotten out of a longterm relationship himself. He had just recently moved back to the area & I felt this nudge to reach out to him. I reached out and we hung out that weekend with another one of our mutual friends. We laughed over seltzers & loud music as we danced to M83 in his kitchen. We were only friends then but I’ll never forget the thought that creeped into my head, “I wonder what it would be like to love someone like him?”
My friend and I left his house and sped to a party down the street. I left still with that thought in my mind. Wondering what it would be like to love someone like him & spend more time with someone like him. A few months later I broke up with my boyfriend at the time and felt this urge to reach out to him since I knew I would have all this free time! And the rest is history, we’ve been together for 2 and a half years now, growing, learning, and experiencing all that this world has to offer.
He’s been my greatest supporter, my best friend, and my biggest moments shared with him. He is quite literally the greatest, most real soul that I have ever seen but have been given the amazing chance to love and be loved by him.
I never knew what my soul needed until I met him.
Until I made the hard decision to let go of someone that was no longer healthy and fulfilling for me.
Until I believed that there was someone out there that I could love as much as I had always dreamed of being loved.
I love you, J. In so many ways and for so many reasons.